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Is this the song you wanted, when I'm not around
Does it make you feel important, when it plays in your town
I can say what I want now, so sit yourself down
You didn't stay in my heart for too long
You just stuck around
I've never been good at letting go, when my heart excites with new lust
If it makes me smile and laugh well, of course then it must
Maybe this time you could tell I was standing too tall
Overcompensating love as if you knew I didn't need you at all
Is this the song you wanted
When I'm not around
Does it make you feel important
When it plays in your town
I can say what I want now
So sit your ass down
You didn't stay in my heart for too long
You just stuck around
You didn't stay in my heart for too long
You just stuck around
Now I sit at the airport, so proud and content
You send kisses and wishes, my god, oh, please give it a rest
I thought it meant something like giving a damn
Let you grasp my heart like you know who I am
Let you lie, cheat, love, mock all without being more than a bad friend
You said write me a song
So when it plays in your town
You can say, hey that's me, but I'm singing that
You let me down
You can say, hey that's me, but I'm singing that
You let me down
I never said I wanted love
You didn't either
Cross-country control was a bloody cold fever
I kissed someone else, and I think you should know
I only got hurt 'cause you didn't let go
Your hold wasn't kind or from any warm place
You're a cowardly boy and my biggest disgrace
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Doing Alright
02:46
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Lately my mind's been doing alright, I'm not eating too well
but I'm sleeping at night, I figured out what I need
not what I want, I'm just a little out of touch
and my mind is not made up
Seascapes of green, rocks on the shore
I wander rosy skies, too, and oh-so much more
I want to wake up at noon, but be home by five, maybe
back out at ten, I want to feel alive
There's a dream of a house to shelter my heart
but the crystal is black, it's tearing me apart
I need to count every dime, pre-fill my cup
now I'm almost 25, and my mind is not made up
Oh, dear hopes and dreams, tell me what it means
It's weary living life just in retrospect
I'll get it all figured out, and then I can start
But something's gotta help me to get through just this part
My mind is not made up
Lately my mind's been doing okay
and I'm starting to think maybe life will always be this way
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Caught
04:00
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Don't you trust me, you say don't you trust me
Your ultimatums try to grab me by the neck
But you don't realize, you don't even realize
So I shouldn't bother to explain perfect sense
I know you mean so well, so why should you feel a thing?
I know you mean so well, it's not fair you feel a thing
The grass is green, the sky is blue
Why should those things mean anything to you?
And if we ever start to shout, just tell me if I don't trust you
Then this thing just won't work out
Now I'm trapped, yeah, I'm caught between what I know and what you mean
Now I'm trapped, yeah, I'm caught between what I know and what the hell you mean
You don't even realize, you really don't realize, your mind does it for you, you really believe your words
The sky is blue, the grass is green, you say you've had enough with me and my philosophy
Philosophy, you mean logic, please,
how the hell else does anybody justify their means?
Now I'm trapped, yeah, I'm caught between what I know and what you need
Now I'm trapped, yeah, I'm caught between what I know and what you need
Don't you trust me, you say don't you trust me
but there's a difference between trust and faith
See faith is blind, and trust is built
by example, not threatened by guilt
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4. |
Quicksand [Explicit]
03:22
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Found myself in the quicksand again
the thing about it I just didn't understand
is that it actually goes pretty slow
My father told me when the frog's in the pot
She won't even know that it's getting pretty hot until
the sweat turns to dust in the air and she's gone
And I'm too far gone
Oh I'm too far gone
I started to think that I could do it all
I could speak my mind, I didn't have to feel small
but there's something in the air, it doesn't like my lungs
My shoes started sinking into dirty muck, oh,
It'd make much more sense just to not give a f ck
I think I'll rip out my feet, leave my anchors to rot
'Cause I'm too far gone
oh, I'm too far gone
But quicksand sinks silly girls, you'd think
by now I'd recognize that awful stink
creepin' up behind these waters
my favorite place to drown
I'm too far gone
oh I'm too far gone
I found myself in the quicksand again
the thing about it I just didn't understand
is that it actually goes pretty slow
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Loose Threads
04:03
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I don’t have any good excuses,
I just have a whole mess of reasons
And that doesn’t do anyone any good
So don’t pull my loose threads, they’re keeping me together
And I still need this ugly f cking sweater
It’s so cold in the middle of July
I cut my hair, I was restlessly creative
But energy hurts, I wish I was sedated
Maybe I’ll try to get back on some pills
This Summer season give me chills
So don’t pull my loose threads, they’re keeping me together
But maybe I could use another f cking sweater
I don’t even know if it’ll do me any better
But it’s all I’ve got
I still don’t have a valid excuse
And I’d like to put all these reasons to use
‘Cause they don’t do anyone any good
But I really wish they could
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Open Up
05:10
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Walking on eggshells trying to find a safe way I can say
How much I love you and all my intention to stay
If your heart is too burdened to let that nerve fray
If your lungs can’t support all the words you don’t say
Then I’ll sing you my soul ‘cause these words you never
Turn away
Open up dear, open up to me tonight, think I’ve figured it out, now, we might be doing this right
And I’ve never been so sure of anything else
Oh, make me your window
You divert your eyes, hang your head like you feel so afraid
You spill out some words like a breath you’d been trying to save
Your walls all come down and you speak in low tones
It kills me to think you would feel so alone
As you tell me you feel so safe, so safe, in my arms
Open up dear, open up to me tonight
Think I’ve figured it out, now
We might be doing this right
And I’ve never been so sure of anything else
Make me your window
I hear from your lips, from your mouth
from the edge of your depths
Your fears for the future and the dreams
that the contexts suggests
Space opens up, between our half empty cups
and I think you very brave
Make me your window
Make me your window
Make me your window
Make me, oh make me
Make me your window
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Most Simple Love
03:28
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Sweet Words
02:40
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A hammock for two is perfect for
Just me and you to sit and watch the
People pass by, we none know what to do
Boxes, closets, things and places
Cardboard, matches, open windows
Curtains, sunlight, breathing I am home
Listen you'll hear the sound of silence
Pulling us near, our minds collect their
Sweet words, inside, for none other to hear
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9. |
Can't Deny
02:37
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Before I give a thing away, allow me first, a word to say
You're nothing to me
But intimately here we lie, again we share a pillow I
said single I would be
Next time when you say goodnight
Do me a favor and don't do it right
You're not supposed to hold me so close so tight
We all have our ways to lie,
how else on earth would we get by, it's not hard to do
But what's the point in lying here,
I don't know what there is to fear
just stop me if I'm wrong
Next time when you say goodnight
Do me a favor and don't do it right
You're not supposed to hold me so close so tight
You don't talk to me, your eyes are open but you don't see
I tell myself I'm done, it's what you do to me
Next time when you say goodnight
Do me a favor and don't do it right
It's hard to leave lies when they hold you tight
Next time when I give the look,
pretend I'm not an open book
leave me then and there and I won't care
lie to me next time we say goodnight
While other souls attract my eye
those lips, so close, I can't deny
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Home
02:57
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Made a home in such a fleeting place
Home seems like a tragic thing to waste
When we say goodbye to these walls, I’ll surely cry
I chase away my blues dreaming my dreamy-dreams
as I dig a little deeper in these deepening seams, oh
stop me in my tracks, ‘cause there’s no going back
Ooh...
Hands behind the wheel, I’m driving into the sun
and I won’t stop until the deed is done
Put me on a plane, say the word before I go insane
'cause waiting grates my mind and you’re so patient, dear
but “no” is never what I ever like to hear
I could buy us a new home, but I won’t go alone…
Ooh...
Sitting on the couch, we stitch another seam
Into the home it’ll hurt so much to leave
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11. |
Retrospect
03:01
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Many times, I’ve asked time to wait
I always learn my lessons too late
Retrospect is just a useless friend
Constant wisdom on the mend
My, oh, my, they say "time will fly"
So I try not to imagine the day I'll die
Peering into creases of lives I’ve had
Some of them were not so bad
Still I can’t really seem to let it go at all, oh
If I collapse, I’ll surely fall
Down where hindsight will take a look
Who even wrote this book?
Many times, I’ve asked time to wait
I always learn my lessons too late
Retrospect is just a useless friend
Constant wisdom on the mend
Hold on a minute now, stop that sand
I’m not ready for it all to fall through my hands
I think I liked it better playing by some script
Than this open book I don’t know how to fill in
Hold on a minute now, stop that page
I just barely started learning from that stage
Down I go into hindsight again
And I forgot my pen
Many times, I’ve asked time to wait
I always learn my lessons too late
Retrospect is just a useless friend
Constant wisdom on the mend
Retrospect is just a useless friend
Constant wisdom on the mend
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12. |
Totems
04:50
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I saw myself in the mirror
I couldn’t believe I knew those eyes
For a moment saw myself clearer
No longer hidden in age’s disguise
A couple moments of silence
Maybe timeless memories are all I can
hold in quiet compliance when the future’s too hard to understand
Maybe when I’m older
more removed I’ll be from that old heart I know
I’ll keep a secret totem
in reflections to always lead back home
I saw myself in the mirror
I couldn’t believe I knew those eyes
For a moment saw myself clearer
No longer hidden in age’s disguise
Where do we go, where do we go?
Where, when we grow
Where, I’d like to know
Hardened and cracked and melted
My bones are shaking and so am I
Swear, one day, I just felt it
I’m running dry
But my love has got a talent
of waking my bones in the gentlest of ways
Laughter swells, when I exhale it
erupts like it did in its earliest days
I saw myself in the mirror
I couldn’t believe I knew those eyes
For a moment saw myself clearer
No longer hidden in age’s disguise
Where do we go
Where do we go
Where, when we grow
Where, I’d like to know
Where do we go
Where do we go
Where, when we grow
Where, I’d like to know
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Natalie Paige Seattle, Washington
good to have you here <3
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